Over the past 24 hours I have been working hard to come up with a start to my NaNoWriMo project. NaNoWriMo is a challenge to write a 50,000 word “fiction novel” in the 30 days of the month of November. For the last 5 or 6 years, I have tried to meet this goal with little success. Finding time to write has also been a great challenge.
As I sit here today, I find myself without a clue what to write or even what type of novel I want to write. The ideas escape me. I feel hollow and empty as I contemplate what I should write.
In this moment, I find myself realizing that this is how many of us feel everyday. We feel that we are missing something important. It is a feeling of despair or hopelessness. A disconnected feeling overwhelms us. But what we are missing is not words. It is a connection to the Divine that we lack.
I saw the posting from Saint Miriam Parish and Friary, our sister parish in Flourtown, PA for their service of Adoration tonight. I found myself longing to sit with our Lord and just to be present in His presence. And I have the great opportunity to do just that any time I want. The problem is not the ability to spend time before our Lord, but rather it is allowing everything else to push that time out of the picture.
I was lamenting the fact that I was alone last night at All Saint’s Mass. Deacon Dana and Subdeacon Thomas were unable to attend last night and so I was alone at Mass. No one else came. As I sat there contemplating putting everything away, I realized that I had everything set up for Mass and I had the time. So I said Mass. Alone. With only the Angels and Saints looking on.
In a way it was a real moment of spiritual enlightenment. It was the realization that I can say Mass whenever I want. I can spend time with our Lord any time I choose. It is all about making that choice to spend time with Him. Unfortunately, I forget that and allow everything else in my life to take priority over my spiritual life. I suspect many of you do the same thing too.
Now is the time to change our priorities. As we prepare to enter Advent and Christmas, as we wait and prepare for the coming of the Christ-Child, we have the great opportunity to spend time in prayer and mediation. We should make time to come to Mass and celebrate the great gifts God has given us. The gift of grace is freely available to those who would take the time to come and receive it.
Resolve with me to make the time to come worship our Lord. Make time to sit silently before Christ and to listen for the still small voice of the Holy Spirit. And be transformed by this great gift of being in His presence.
Come and experience the difference one hour can make!